This IS the way I wanted it.
Staring up at the mortal, Lina Inverse. Though now she isn't Lina, is she?
No, this is the Lord of Nightmares. L-sama. The one person I least expected to make an appearance THIS night. I watch in shock, but with reverence, too. How could a Mazoku not? The Golden Lord, the Dark Lord of all Dark Lords. Hell, even Lord Ruby-Eye bows to her. How long has it been since she made an appearance in the mortal realm? More years than I can count. And yet here she is. Weaving a spell that will no doubt destroy me. Do I feel honored? Of course. But just because it's an honor to be in the presence of L-sama doesn't mean I'm not gonna make a run for it.

The one trick I do so well; vanishing, leaving behind a mere shred of myself. The trick that easily fooled the humans; that doesn't work against her. Fear wells inside me for the first time. If I can't escape her, I'll release the pent up chaos inside her!

So what do I do now? I DID want destruction, maybe even my own death. But not like this. No. If I have to die, I want it to be in a glorious moment of chaos; the screaming of humans and dragons ringing in my ears as I triumphantly descend into blissful darkness. The pain, agony, fear, and anguish of war. The knowledge that I had won, that the Mazoku would rule the chaos-ridden world. That's the goal of our kind, of course. Forcing the earth to descend into the chaos it began as. But will that happen? I'm the strongest of us five. Beast Master, Dynast, Deep Sea, none of them have the power I wield. And of course, Garv is already dead. So if I'm not around to help, will our goal still be fulfilled? If the Lord of Nightmares is a Dark Lord, wouldn't she want to help us? What would she accomplish by killing me?

L-sama. So many questions. Is this what happens to the mortals before they die? Though I suppose that the Creator of the Four Worlds would have to remain neutral. The perfect balance between good and evil, god and devil, dragon and demon; that balance can't afford to tip to far one way. Damn, does this mean we'll never win? Does this mean the dragons won't either?! And WHY THE HELL AM I THINKING THIS NOW?!!! Where did this sudden moment of clarity come from, when all my thousands of years of life I thought I knew all I needed to know?! But that's not important right now.